Sitting over words very late, I have heard a kind of whispered sighing…
~ W.S.Merwin
Here
I am with my second sharing as one of the co-hosts for Hagstone
Publishing's Plant Spirit Ally Challenge, which takes place through
the whole of May. If you would like to know more about it do go and have
a read of my previous post on shrine making and visit HagstonePublishing’s website. There is all sorts of yummy stuff there.
And
so to today; writing about writing with written
words about writing. It feels a bit overwhelming, but I will have a
go. When
I thought about today the main thing that I
wanted to say was please don’t worry, and I think that I will
expand on that a little before we begin. If
you are thinking of engaging
in today’s prompt and
feel nervous, just remember that this need only be a playful &
happy experience. The words you write don't need to make sense to
anyone but you, or even to you! Sometimes,
as with journeying, the meaning unfolds later, or remains as a
beautiful mystery that pulls at the unconscious ~ a shining thread to
connect us to the Otherworld where understanding is woven in a way
that we can scarcely imagine. Many of us have been
put off writing, traumatised even, by our time at school, when we are
taught to use words ‘properly’. Let me just say that there is no
‘properly’ here. In fact, the more improper you feel like being
the better as far as I’m concerned!
Author
Paul Kingsnorth, who writes a great deal on the importance of words, in quite a
different context than this one but which feels relevant here nonetheless, has suggested that one of the things that we might usefully do to support the wild is
to create nature refuges. He is very careful to explain that it is no
longer enough to talk about, or even to create, nature ‘reserves’. We must
do more than ‘reserve’ space for nature. We must make her our
centre and our priority, our first thought in all that we do. Words
matter. Creating a refuge feels so much more urgent than setting
aside a reserve. And so perhaps in taking part in day 16 of the Plant
Spirit Ally Challenge we can create a refuge for words and for
language, freed from the need to say something important, to rock the
world on its axis, or even to make sense. Perhaps we can just give them space,
set them free a little in the spirit of playfulness and curiosity,
and see what magic they make.
In
her book, ‘Writing to Wake the Soul’, Karen Hering quotes poet
Heid.
E. Erdrich, who tells us in the final line of her, ‘Origin of
Poem’, “it might simply be a matter of finding and feeling our
connection to what is deep and alive, well below the surface of
things. In either case, it can require a lot of casting and long,
patient waiting.
We
fish our own waters
green
and layered
weedy
and warm -
Nothing
rises,
no
ripples, but we wait.
All
we want is the tug -
something
deep, alive, on the line”
~
Heid.
E. Erdrich
I
have a few little ideas and techniques to help us create a wild
refuge for our words but I will firstly mention something that once
helped me. A long time
ago I was introduced to the idea that words and language are a sense;
just like touch, taste, smell, hearing, and sight. They are a way in
which we can explore the world, sending them out so that we can see
what bounces back. They don’t need to be ‘right’, if there even
is such a thing. They just need to be allowed to fly. And that is all
we are doing here; sending out our words to explore the space between
ourselves and our plant spirit ally and, if we choose to share,
between ourselves and other people. Our words can be, and are, an
offering to our plant ally, both the words themselves, but also the
attention given to the connection and the time offered to the task.
And, for any amongst us who are afraid to offer the written word, our
courage in doing so is the most powerful and beautiful of offerings
to this prayer of connection we are weaving. Be
brave, be wild, be willing.
And
we might consider too that the words we use aren’t ultimately the
important thing. In the image and metaphor of words we are seeking an
older tongue even than language; a universal understanding beyond the
words themselves, a sort of dream language perhaps. We are seeking to
share beyond the boundaries of surface understanding and diving into
the wild seas of poetry, parable, and prayer. Who knows
what might return to us on the tide?
In
the Bible is
the story of the Tower of Babel. We
are told that, following the Great
Flood, a united humanity spoke only one language. Migrating
westwards, they came
to Mesopotamia and
decided that they would build a city and in it a great tower tall
enough to reach heaven. In
order to stop them God created many languages so that the people
could no longer understand one another well
enough to cooperate and
scattered us across
the planet. This story
has been compared with that of Adam and Eve being expelled from
the Garden of Eden. There
are so many ways of interpreting both those stories but they both
warn us that
transgression
leads to separation,
from the Earth and from
one another. Or we
might say that separation leads to transgression, however we might
understand both those terms. How easily we seek to blame the Divine in her many forms for our loss of paradise. It's we who separated earth from sky. I
notice too that the actual wording in Genesis 11: 1 tells us that,
“the whole earth was of one language, and of one speech.” It
wasn’t only humanity that shared one language. It was the whole
Earth, and we all understood one another.
How might we find our way back to the garden, mending the scattered pieces and reaching heaven at last? Again we are told that at Pentecost, fifty days after the Resurrection, the Holy Spirit appeared as ‘tongues of fire’, filling those present. From then on, they were able to communicate in the language of whoever they met and to be understood. If we can put our differences aside, we will know that, whatever our religious or spiritual tradition, in connection with Spirit we are able to understand one another and share in community. Language, words, and writing, come from this desire to share experience, to connect and communicate. If we have words, if we can speak, then we can write. The voice is a prayer written on the sky, writing a prayer recorded on a page. They belong to us and there is no need to be afraid. We have all been gifted with tongues of fire.
How might we find our way back to the garden, mending the scattered pieces and reaching heaven at last? Again we are told that at Pentecost, fifty days after the Resurrection, the Holy Spirit appeared as ‘tongues of fire’, filling those present. From then on, they were able to communicate in the language of whoever they met and to be understood. If we can put our differences aside, we will know that, whatever our religious or spiritual tradition, in connection with Spirit we are able to understand one another and share in community. Language, words, and writing, come from this desire to share experience, to connect and communicate. If we have words, if we can speak, then we can write. The voice is a prayer written on the sky, writing a prayer recorded on a page. They belong to us and there is no need to be afraid. We have all been gifted with tongues of fire.
Writing
is in itself a solitary, private, and intimate activity. It is
between us and our pen and paper. Or, of course, between our keyboard
and screen, but I would encourage everyone who is able to to make some
marks on paper for this task. I like writing on a laptop myself.
Typing helps me to keep up with the speed of my thoughts and to move
things around, and I find crossing things out on paper physically
painful such a perfectionist am I, but there is something about
sitting with a blank page and then making the first mark. And, like
the making of any relationship, what that mark means or will become
is only for us and the words to say. Let
there be freedom in that.
And
so, here are just a few ways in which we might begin to make our
beautiful marks.
One
way that really helps me when I feel stuck is ‘free-flow’, or
automatic, writing, which I was taught about by woman of deep-heart,
Tegwyn Hyndman. For this all we need is a stack of paper (always have
more paper than you think you will need) and a pen. Begin by relaxing
and moving into a ‘daydreamy’ state in whichever way you find
easiest. We might spend some time slowing our breathing, we might
meditate, or drum. It would be lovely to begin with Michelle of
Hagstone Publishing’s ‘You Breathe Out, She Breathes In’ plant
meditation from day 2, which you can find here. Having
your plant spirit ally nearby would be a blessing, perhaps drinking
some tea made from her flowers or leaves if your plant isn’t toxic
in any way. I
chose to have bath into which I added lilacs, my
plant spirit ally for this challenge, and
held a single lilac flower under my tongue. I also refreshed my lilac
altar by adding new flowers and lighting a candle. It all just helped
me to feel woven in, in touch.
For
the free-flow writing you will need to create
a sentence to lead you in. For my
writing with the Lilac
being I chose, “In the house of the Lilac being I find…..” but
it could be anything that opens up the space. Perhaps, “Lilac wants
to share that...”, or simply, “Lilac says that...” Write that
sentence at the top of a fresh piece of paper, making sure that your
stack of paper is nearby, set a timer if that feels right (it helps
me not to feel agitated or tempted to keep looking at the clock), I
suggest for ten minutes. I know that that feels like ages, but it
really isn’t, and then just start writing. And don’t stop. Write
whatever comes into your head or heart, without censorship or
worrying about repetition or spelling mistakes or punctuation. Just
keep writing and see what comes. Sometimes there is a flash of
brilliance like a shooting star, and sometimes is enough. If you get
stuck, just keep writing anyway. You might write, “I am stuck. I am stuck. I
am stuck. I can’t think of any words. I wish that I had never
started this...” and, when/if you can, bring your attention back to your
plant. She may be waiting to tell you something. At the end of the
ten minutes stop and read what you have written, without judgement if
you can, and holding the words lightly.
Here
is my free-flow with Lilac, uncensored but maybe with a comma added
here and there, for ease of shared understanding; mine and yours.
"In
the house of the Lilac being I find…
A
prayer of petals, intoxicating, heat and heady scent. I seek the
centre, push aside flower on flower to find the spell of her heart
centre, but she has secret spells that elude my seeking sense. She
calls me to deeper depths like light on water enticing me to dive.
She ripples, is gossamer thread turned to gold, a blush of passion
rising on the skin, graces afternoon tea with hidden lust for
sweetness. She says more; more flowers, more sky, more honey on the
tongue, more song, more breeze to turn petals to light, more depth,
more pushing aside to find the heart, more hum of bees, more poems in
the bark, more root, more space, more light. More, she says, and
still more. And I am enough in this scattering of flowers and chaos
of stems, in this snaking of roots. She says that I am more than I
know and that I am enough. I can be close and grow and I can journey
far. This mountain prayer, this song of shore, this salt-sea tide,
this movement and this edge is all. This wave of love. This passion
scent and sent in lust for life, for more, for more than this, and
for this to be made of light. The this, the more, the prayer, the
song, the serpent at the root, the poem, and the petal wild with
light and love.”
Isn’t
she exciting!!
Another
practice, which I often choose when I would like to write a poem but
feel under pressure, is to write a haiku. This is a simple Japanese
poetry form made up of three non-rhyming lines of seventeen syllables
in a 5-7-5 pattern; five in the first and third lines, seven in
the second. To write a
haiku is relatively easy, to write an enchanting one is harder, but
that’s what makes them interesting. Here is mine for Lilac;
Sound
the hollow bone.
Raise
a petal to your lips.
In
bliss, Lilac sings.
My
haiku comes from Lilac’s genus
name, ‘Syringa’, which comes from the Ancient Greek word
‘shrinx’, meaning ‘tube’ or ‘pipe’, and referring to the
lilac’s hollow stems, which
make me think of flutes
or the bones of birds. I
love that image.
Finally,
if we are feeling really stuck or are just seeking a place to start,
we might sink into the depth and beauty of simple description. What
more beautiful prayer to relationship than to truly SEE the other?
So
we might describe her colour, her taste (if it is safe to taste her),
her smell, her texture and her temperature, her sound.
For Lilac ~
"In my nearby garden, she is white. Her
flower spikes, growing on the end of long stems in gatherings of
three and four, are a mass of single flowers, each one on a tiny
green stalk that disappears in a froth of petals. Somehow she makes
sense and shape of it. In
morning light she is almost
transparent with no colour at all. At sunset I have seen her turn to
buttery gold. Her bark is pale, her trunk twists. She smells sweet,
her flowers bitter on
my tongue. She is all contradictions. The
wilder faraway lilac is purple. Her flowers change from deepest pink
to palest lavender with age. She is so wild with leaves and flowers
that I can’t see her bark but I can hear the wind rustling through
her, have heard the tap of rain on her surface. She smells deeper,
headier. I seek out the perfectly opened flowers for the strongest
smell. I bow before the petals that are turning brown and wish them
well as they wane. And she is cool like ice on summer’s day and hot
like heat haze. I am in awe of the life in her, of the whip-crack of
her stems. I wonder whether I could ever be so scattered, so
seemingly chaotic, and so surely myself."
I
am sure that I have
only scratched the surface of describing her and I found it almost
impossible to only describe, rather than slipping into metaphor or
simile. And that is alright too, because even in the struggle to
draw her in to what I had decided I wanted her to be, and in failing,
I have learned something of the Lilac being. It is all touching
another. It is all the making of relationship.
Let
the beauty we love be what we do.
There
are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.
~
Jalal
Al-Din Rumi
And
so, enjoy today’s delicious task, both you and your chosen plant ally. I will so much look forward to
reading your words, if you do choose to share.
References:
Hagstone Publishing ~ https://www.hagstonepublishing.com/
'Writing to Wake the Soul: Opening the Sacred Conversation Within' by Karen Hering, Atria/Beyond Words, 2013.
https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Acts+2&version=NIV
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Syringa
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Syringa
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