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Saturday, 4 April 2020
The Blessings on our Doorsteps & Dying Alone in the Time of Corona
Hello dear readers. I hope that you, and those you love, are well in these extraordinary times. This is just a small sharing before I write more in the weeks to come, especially as we move into the strangest of Holy Weeks & Eastertide. For now, we are continuing our forty days & nights in the wilderness, which has seemed so deeply apt this year. But, of course, it is a wilderness whose blessings we have unlearned how to see.
We are well here in our self-isolation and I have been enjoying many heart-opening walks, during which I have foraged for wild medicine. I have bern hugely drawn to nettles, who I am finding more and more ways to incorporate into my diet, and also to cleavers spring tonic, of which more soon. Today, I have heard that it's going to be beautifully sunny for many of us and so I am hoping to go for a little walk to the woods to see if I can find wild garlic. These are blessed times in so many ways.
But I wanted to write a little about another nearby plant and all that her presence and recent flowering has led me to reflect upon.
The plant pictured above is beautiful herb-Robert, also known as red robin, fox geranium, & stinking Bob, amongst many other names, who has come into flower just by our front door. She has so many wonderful edible and medicinal qualities that I'm quite determined to write a longer blog about her soon. But what her presence makes me think about today is how supported we are by the other-than-human world, and otherworld, that surrounds us.
Aside from herb-Robert, on one side of our front door we have cleavers and, on the other side, nettles. All either support our immune systems, or are, like herb-Robert, actively anti-viral. I feel better, and more protected, just by knowing that they're there but I fully intend to add herb-Robert into my daily medicine taking practice; not because of what I hope to gain, but because its presence by our door feels like an invitation to relationship.
Over recent weeks it has become more clear that so many of us feel deeply, achingly, alone and unsupported; this is why swathes of us immediately took to stockpiling when Covid-19 first came to our shores. It's why so many insist on going out to get-things-done, even though they would be better staying at home and asking for help. And it is making our mourning even more painful to think that our loved ones, or anyone, has died 'alone' in a hospital bed.
This wound is deep; borne partly of the human condition; that feeling of separation that so rarely leaves us. But it has also been nurtured in us through many years of the deliberate erosion of community, and also our disconnection from sister death, our loss of relationship. No wonder that we panic so. We just don't trust Life. If only we were able to look just outside our front doors, or in the cracks in the pavements we walk every day, or in so many places that are so familiar that we look but rarely see. We are surrounded by friends. We are never without good company or support for the journey, and that feels to be especially true now.
But, today, I especially want to say something about dying alone, as we come to a time when some of us and some of those we love may fall to the coronavirus. It is indeed a terrible thing to contemplate dying without the surrounding presence of those who love us. Particularly in this country, we are very used to that being possible, although we might also breathe deeply into the fact that many choose to die when their loved ones have slipped out of the room, and that our animal kin will often take themselves away to wait for their final heartbeat.
To die is a solitary activity, but we are never alone in it. Sister death is with us, our ancestors are there to hold out a hand, our God. I know in my bones that many beings of good intent will show us the way.
When my dear, beloved dad died I was the only one who was with him; it was a privilege, the holy of holies, but I didn't feel that it was my presence that made him not alone. He was so busy with what he had to do; he moved his hands in the air in ways that I later discovered mirrored the movements he made at work when using his lathe, every now and then he would reach up as though picking an apple and then hold the prized fruit to his lips with great pleasure. When he had been struggling, for what seemed like forever, to let go of this wordly life, I prayed for his mum to come and show him the way. And I swear that he took three more deep breaths and died. It was the most beautiful moment of my life and it mattered that I was there as a witness but no, it wasn't my presence that made him not alone. Far from it.
And yes, it must be frightening and heatbreaking to be in hospital ill and dying and not to be abe to have visitors, and the greatest of tragedies for loved ones not to be able to hold a hand one last time before death comes. But we are never, ever alone and no one dies alone. The herb-Robert, the cleavers, and the nettles by my door tell me that. My dad taught me.
Be of good heart, beloved friends. We are held in this world, the next, and the places in between. We could not be more blessed.
Tuesday, 17 January 2017
Everyday Enchantment ~ Angels with Dirty Faces
| Primroses in St Mary's Churchyard, Plaistow, March 2016. |
“Do
not, as some ungracious pastors do,
Show me the steep and thorny
way to heaven;
Himself the primrose path of dalliance treads,
And recks not his own rede...”
So says Ophelia to her brother, Laertes, in William Shakespeare's 'Hamlet', Act I, Scene III, when referring to the hypocrisy of those, whether peasant or priest, who preach the merits of 'goodness' whilst living in quite another way themselves. Good old Shakespeare, truly in so many ways a manifestation of the spirit of the Green Man, a shaman of the quill, weaving yet another little flower into the magic of our language. And so the phrase 'to lead someone down the primrose path', or to encourage taking the way of hedonism and worldly pleasure, rather than the uninviting and dry as dust path to heavenly salvation, was born and the innocent buttery little primrose forever associated with wantonness, despite her seeming fragility. She does so thrive in the damp and fecund edge places, of hedgebank and wood, railway embankment and roadside verge, of churchyard and stream. And all the better for it!
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| Photo: wildseed.co.uk |
Primrose, primula vulgaris, a British native, is one of the first flowers to appear in the spring. She is such a symbol of hope and of life returning with her bright green rosette leaves and creamy yellow translucent petals, as though she has gathered up every ray of pale winter sunlight and turned it into flowers. Her Latin name translates as 'first rose', although she is not related to the rose family at all, and the best times to see her are from March until May. Yet she often births into the light as early as January in sheltered spots during mild winters. I saw my first primroses in flower last week despite the recent snow, which is what has led me to write about them now. Indeed, primrose leaves are almost an evergreen if they are protected by a churchyard wall or a guardian bank and their vibrant leaves are most welcome underfoot during the dark months. A pleasurable path indeed. There are many times when I have been encouraged to walk further than I might have done on damp, washed-of-colour days by a trail of these cheerful little beings amongst the dead leaves, whether in flower or not. It is no wonder that they are the county flower of Devon, where they can be seen in abundance, and were also the choice of Scotland, Northern Ireland, and Wales in a recent Plantlife vote to find the nation's favourite wild flower (England chose the bluebell, with primroses second). American horticulturist, Buckner Hollingsworth, wrote in his 'Flower Chronicles' that “England displays a rose on the Royal crest of arms, but she carries a primrose in her heart”. They are held in deep affection, despite Shakespeare describing "the primrose way to the everlasting bonfire” in MacBeth!
| My first primrose flower of 2017, St Martin's Churchyard, Horn Street, 11th January |
One
of my favourite things about primroses is the way that, when first opened
and
damp with dew, their petals, for
all the world like newly emerged butterfly's wings,
are often smeared with mud as though they have had to fight the hold
of the winter frost and hard earth
to
make their way into the light. Truly they are little angels with
dirty faces, and I love them for it. They
remind me that it is possible to be delicate, soft as butter, pure
as milk, and yet brave with it. Snowdrops, although just as tender,
have the power of the spear, primroses of the ruffle!
Sweet
then that some of primrose's common names are 'butter rose', 'lady's
frills', and 'milkmaid', although the latter, a name attached to many
flowers, may more likely describe the oxlip, a cross between a
primrose and a cowslip. She is a fertile little soul, and where no
other primroses are present a cowslip will do. Wanton indeed!
Which
brings me to a fascinating
finding, something that I had never heard of before gathering morsels to write this
piece. It seems that primroses bear two different types of flowers,
which
although hermaphrodite, and superficially
the same to the eye, are
very different in the secret world of small things. These flowers,
which grow on separate plants, are called either 'pin-eyed' or
'thrum-eyed', and the differences between them help to promote
cross-pollination and therefore a healthy primrose community. I am
certainly not an expert
in understanding
or
describing the diverse
sexual shenanigans of plants, and yet it seems that the five petals
of primrose flowers join at their base to form a tube. Inside
are anthers, which hold pollen grains, and stigma, the female part of
the flower where pollen lands to begin the fertilisation process. In
the pin-eyed flowers the stigma protrude above the anthers, looking
like tiny green pinheads in the centre of the flower. In the
thrum-eyed flowers the anthers are longer and the stigma is not
visible. At the bottom of the flower is much-prized nectar, only
accessible to long-tongued insects (the rare Duke of Burgundy
butterfly is one). Whichever flower is visited first will deposit
pollen perfectly on the insect's tongue to pollinate the opposite
type of flower; thrum-eyed to pin-eyed and pin-eyed to thrum-eyed.
And
voilà, baby primroses everywhere! To add to the wonder, the pollen
produced by the two flowers differs. The pollen of the thrum-eyed
flower is markedly larger because the tubes put out by the grains in
order to reach the flower's ovaries have further to travel from the
long stigmas of the pin-eyed flowers. The pollen of the pin-eyed
flowers has less work to do, as it is deposited deeper in the flower,
and so can afford to be smaller. Truly enchanting! You
can see lovely images of the two types of primrose flowers here on
the marvellous Bugwoman in London blog, which I highly recommend.
I hadn't realised when I began writing that I would find that primroses are a perfect symbol of the beauties and importance of sexual diversity, nor of a whisper of perhaps asking their blessings in the work of coming into right relationship with the inner feminine and masculine, the anima and animus. What unexpected places the beings of earth, flower, and root can take us to!
I hadn't realised when I began writing that I would find that primroses are a perfect symbol of the beauties and importance of sexual diversity, nor of a whisper of perhaps asking their blessings in the work of coming into right relationship with the inner feminine and masculine, the anima and animus. What unexpected places the beings of earth, flower, and root can take us to!
Discovering
this world of small wonder has gone some way to explaining to me why
the primrose was one of the flowers used in the creation of the Welsh
goddess, and outcast
spirit
mother of the hedgerows and edge places, Blodeuwedd, who has also
been accused of leading the unwary to the 'everlasting bonfire' with
her licentious and shameless ways. And yet how could any being created
from flowers ever feel shame for the wild diversity of being that she
inhabits; something to be celebrated, rather than damned. The
primrose path looks lovelier by the minute.
“And
in the woods, where often you and I
Upon
faint primrose beds were wont to lie...”
(William
Shakespeare, 'A Midsummer Night's Dream)
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| Wild flower stained glass memorial window with primroses, taken in a church in Wales |
My
second favourite thing about primroses, and one which again concerns
the ways in which they extend the boundaries of their loveliness, is
that our much-maligned and equally beloved badgers help to spread
them along bank and ditch as they dig for worms. How intimate this shimmering Web of Life that we are a part of. As an aside,
badgers are also hugely helpful in the growth of difficult to
propagate wild cherry trees by consuming the fruit with abandon and
then depositing the cherry stones in fertile piles of badger poo. I
love this image of badgers as our wild gardeners carefully deciding
where cherry trees should be planted.
"The pale brimstone primroses come at the spring
Swept over and fann'd by the wild thrush's wing"
'Primroses', John Clare, 1793 ~ 1864
"The pale brimstone primroses come at the spring
Swept over and fann'd by the wild thrush's wing"
'Primroses', John Clare, 1793 ~ 1864
And
why should Brock consider the propagation of primroses to be
important for his wild garden? In the early days of medicine they were considered to be an important remedy for muscular rheumatism,
paralysis, and gout, and were spoken of by Pliny as a virtual cure-all. The whole plant is a sedative and a tincture
made from it was used to treat cases of extreme sensitivity,
restlessness, and insomnia. An infusion of the root taken in
tablespoon doses was helpful in curing headaches and the plant mixed
with lard was used as an ointment for wounds. Its flowers were even
the main ingredient in an ancient recipe called 'Primrose Pottage',
which sounds delicious and I am a great fan of anything involving the
word 'pottage'. She
was also a flower of the poor and there are tales of those on a low
income collecting primrose petals to bake into pies. It
should be noted though that, although the primrose population is considered
stable, they have suffered greatly from over collection and habitat
loss and we
rarely see the great drifts of yellow flowers that many remember
from the childhoods. A friend, Patsy, shared with me her own memories of primroses when she was small, "Oh,
I remember going primrosing, on the way to Brighton to visit my Nanny
in Brighton in the 1960s. The huge, perfumed bunches of soft, pretty
pale yellow flowers we gathered to present her with! How excited we
got when we discovered a yellow-carpeted glade or roadside bank!" It would be lovely if we were once again able to freely gather primroses, for our Nannies and ourselves, knowing that there would still be abundant drifts of butter roses remaining in the wild places. For now, the
plants are rightly protected under the Wildlife and Countryside Act, 1981
which prohibits their collection or removal from the wild.
| April 2012 |
This
'over collection' may have something to do with the amount of
folklore which binds the magic of primroses to the faery-kin. Children
used to eat the flowers or peer over the top of the petals in the
hope of seeing fairies. Posies
were left on doorsteps in the anticipation that fairies would bless the house
and its residents, although conversely the posies were also believed
to provide a barrier to prevent fairies from crossing the threshold.
If I were a fairy I might not want to bestow blessings on a household
that wielded primrose posies in such a bewildering way! Often their folk-magic
was bound up with that of May Day, “Guard
the house with a string of primroses on the first three days of May.
The fairies are said not to be able to pass over or under the
string.”
(National Folklore Collection, Ireland). In
Ireland, the flowers were
rubbed on cows' udders
to ensure a rich milk yield and
primrose balls were hung on their
tails on May Eve to prevent fairies and witches stealing their milk.
Despite
this lack of generosity,
fairies were said to be fond of primroses and to be angry if they
were allowed to die through neglect; a
fine encouragement to treasure and protect our wild flowers in their
natural habitats, rather than bringing them indoors.
Numbers
also
seem
important in primrose folklore. It
was said that if one were to touch a 'fairy rock' with just the right
amount of primroses in a posy you would be shown the way to
Fairyland. If it was the 'wrong' number then one's fate was to be
less pleasant, although the form that that might take is obviously
too fearsome to relate. As
well as protection of the dairy, primroses were also important to
hen-wives and children were told never to bring fewer than thirteen
flowers into the house in spring, as that would
be the number of chicks a hen would then hatch (thirteen being
considered the perfect number). The
wonderful Plant Lore relates an incident where mediation was
required between two old women, one of whom had accused the other of
encouraging her child to bring one primrose flower into the house and
so cause her hens to only hatch one chick out of each batch of eggs that year!
The
association between
chicks and primrose flowers
was thought to be a sort of 'sympathetic magic' as they not
only appear at the same time of year, but both are also yellow. This
possibly explains the connection with butter and milk too. In
some places primroses were also known as 'goslings' and believed to
have the same effect on the hatching of goose eggs, but this is more
usually a matter for the catkins of pussy willow.
As
well as the connection to birth and fecundity, primroses were associated with death, which seems incongruous in such an archetypally 'spring' plant. I wonder how much of this is a later overlay by the Church, one which has also affected snowdrops and their own folklore? Another friend told me that, although she finds primroses pretty, they 'spook her' because to smell their scent meant death. Returning to numbers, this range of meaning for the primrose may be due to the five petals of her flower being said to represent 'birth, initiation, consummation,
repose, and death'. It was also sometimes believed
that giving someone a single primrose, or bringing one indoors, would
cause death.
Victorians chose primroses as one of the flowers which should be planted on children's graves. Rev. John Evans wrote in 1898 that, “The snow-drop, violet and primrose denote the infant dust”, echoing the words of Charles Bucke in his 1821 publication, 'On the Beauties, Harmonies, and Sublimities of Nature, with Occasional Remarks on the Laws, Customs, Manners, and Opinions of Various Nations', who said that, “in some villages, children have snowdrops, primroses, violets, hazel-bloom, and sallow blossoms upon their graves.” It seems that, as symbols of youth and innocence, primroses were also the perfect flowers to accompany such small souls into the afterlife. Here, we find Shakespeare again, who describes primrose as the 'funeral flower for youth' in 'Cymbeline', Act 4.
Victorians chose primroses as one of the flowers which should be planted on children's graves. Rev. John Evans wrote in 1898 that, “The snow-drop, violet and primrose denote the infant dust”, echoing the words of Charles Bucke in his 1821 publication, 'On the Beauties, Harmonies, and Sublimities of Nature, with Occasional Remarks on the Laws, Customs, Manners, and Opinions of Various Nations', who said that, “in some villages, children have snowdrops, primroses, violets, hazel-bloom, and sallow blossoms upon their graves.” It seems that, as symbols of youth and innocence, primroses were also the perfect flowers to accompany such small souls into the afterlife. Here, we find Shakespeare again, who describes primrose as the 'funeral flower for youth' in 'Cymbeline', Act 4.
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| Primroses planted in a Welsh church font |
The
Greeks named the flower (and
its sister, cowslip)
'paralios'
after
a youth who was said to have died from a broken heart when
his love, Melicerta, was turned into a primrose by
the Gods.
Strange that the flower was named for him and not for her, although
primrose is a flower of paradoxes ~ both chaste and wanton, an emblem of birth, innocence,
and tender childhood, and a marker of their death, a symbol of love
and sweetness, but also of inconstancy, the sense of being forsaken,
and lovers' doubts. It
seems to me that primrose's 'root wisdom', which weaves together all
these aspects, is the reminder to keep our hearts open, through
doubts and heartache, through loss and grief, through all the journeys that necessitate us pushing through the dark, emerging fragile, dishevelled, and grubby faced into the pale
light. If she can shine and remain butter-soft
through all of that then so can we. It
is not so very hard. If we dare to peer over the petals of their beloved flowers, the
faery-kin will no doubt remind us that there is
an edge of
danger and of blessing in everything and that when we have struggled through much that has left us winter-ragged
and storm-torn, we all deserve to walk along the Primrose
Path
for a while.
At eve, the primrose path along,
The milkmaid shortens with a song
Her solitary way;
She sees the fairies with their queen
Trip hand-in-hand the circled green,
And hears them raise, at times unseen,
The ear-enchanting lay.
Her solitary way;
She sees the fairies with their queen
Trip hand-in-hand the circled green,
And hears them raise, at times unseen,
The ear-enchanting lay.
Rev. John Logan: Ode to Spring, 1780
As a final aside, the writing of this piece has been confused by the ways in which the folklore of primroses and cowslips, which are related species but certainly not the same, seem to have become tangled together. Some authors acknowledge that certain pieces of folk-wisdom apply to both. Others will state that they are sharing primrose folklore when it clearly relates only to cowslips. I believe that sources which give one of the common names of primrose as 'St Peter's Keys' are guilty of this, for example. And cowslips do look so very much like a little bunch of golden keys. I have omitted information that proved, or felt, wrong. It matters to trust the ground under our feet and our own observations and feelings when writing about flowers, or anything else. And I asked the primroses.
| Primroses growing beside a grave, St Mary Plaistow, March 2016 |
References:
http://www.gardenherbs.org/simples/primrose.htm
Monday, 7 March 2016
Today's Small Beauties
Being
made a lovely sweet chai to start the day. And many hugs.
A
bright blue sky and the perfect weather for wearing a winter coat,
sunglasses, and a woolly hat all at once!
Setting
off for London with lovely goodbyes from Himself, Stefi Queen of
Cats, and Maisie, the next door cat. Proper.
Being
remembered by my taxi driver who used to live near me in Greenwich.
Bright
sun lighting the silver sea.
The
perfect curve of a green hill against the perfect sky.
River
boats in the sunshine.
Spotting
a blackened plaque on a bridge which informed me that Abbey Road DLR
station is built on the site of a Cistercian Abbey; St Mary's. Sad
that it isn't still there but I welcomed the opportunity to
acknowledge the presence of the sacred beneath the everyday.
A
whole hour to spend in a coffee shop doing not much at all.
Two
lots of lovely feedback about my tarot readings. Feeling very blessed
by that deep connection with other souls.
A
sweet few moments watching the bright bobbingness of a Pied Wagtail
on a fence post. What lovely cheery birds they truly are.
Alder
catkins shining red in the sun.
Seeing
a heron in flight over Thamesmead.
A
sprinkling of Blackthorn flowers like tiny stars along the roadside.
Much
abundance, after several days of worry; feeling the beautiful flow
between us all.
The
sweetest and most unexpected of gifts.
That Will's funeral was two years ago today; acknowledging the
amazing movement of time, thankful for the help and support of many
friends, especially Shoshana and Jennifer,
and feeling moved that his sweet body has rested for so long in the
sacred land. I like to think of him dreaming there and I know that
those of us who shared his day did it right. It isn't a sad feeling.
I feel nothing but gratitude and love for the power of the land to
hold us. Healing in all worlds.
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| Will in his sacred land, 24th July 2011 |
And
looking excitedly forward to the next few weeks when much will change
and shift. Life is good!
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