Christus Pantocrator in the apsis of the cathedral of Cefalù, c. 1130. GNU-free documentation licence, Wiki Commons |
I don't write much about Christianity here, although it creeps in sometimes. Being more known for my Goddess work, I find it hard to talk about for fear of excluding anyone or appearing to have abandoned my devotion to She~Who~Is, which would be very far from the truth. However, I felt that I would share an experience that I had yesterday as I think that it speaks to the heart of many spiritual paths. I must say that I had the most disheartening, and in some ways blessedly enlightening, day which I am still feeling wobbly from. It was dark moon after all, but now the moon is newly born and I am reflecting on my experiences.
I went along, with some friends from the church I attend, to the Christian Resources Exhibition at Sandown
Park in Surrey. I love a day out and a new experience. I believe that
the exhibition has been running for more than 30 years and so I
thought that it might be interesting to go along. And I was right!
I had a lovely time with my friends, and know that there were many people of good heart at the
exhibition, but I am left with the impression that the mainstream
manifestations of Christianity in this country, and no doubt in
others, is nothing more than Corporate power feeding itself through
religion. So many lovely, genuine people circling a dying star when
there is so much life to be had a breath away.
Even aside from that, which is bad
enough, there were several disturbing stalls there; one spreading,what I can only describe as, anti-Islamic hate material. That stall had
pamphlets deriding all interfaith work, one demanding that the UK
'return to our Christian path' and one on 'Islam and slavery'.
Obviously they didn't see the irony in a religion which helped to
spread Colonialism, and so slavery, throughout the world making such claims about Islam without also looking at themselves. It does nothing to help when we attack others
whilst not admitting our own culpability. It is shallow to do so, at
best, but I feel that it does genuine harm and makes the possibility of
change less and less likely. Two young women, who were probably in
their early 20s, seemed very keen on the information there. It made me
feel sad. Opposite that stall was one on 'Creationism', which refuted
evolution. Those two stalls were relegated to a far corner of the
exhibition but they were still there. I am all for freedom of
expression, and Creationism is a way of thinking that it should be
possible to debate without bad feeling, but the anti-Islam stall in
particular seemed very wrong.
And then, right in the centre of
everything, 'Christian Friends of Israel' and the Israeli Tourist
Board (with perhaps the largest stand of any exhibitor), inviting us
all to go on tours of the Holy Land. I wonder whether the Palestinian people have a tourist board and can invite others to visit their holy
places, which are after all more or less the same ones? And I wonder
whether the 'tour of the Holy Land' includes a tour of the illegal Israeli settlements on the West Bank, or of the, more than a thousand, olive groves that the
Palestinian people rely on but which Israel has destroyed, or the
solar panels donated to Palestine by The Netherlands on humanitarian grounds; confiscated by Israel, or perhaps the place where American activist, Rachel Corrie, was mown down and killed by an Israeli soldier driving an armoured bulldozer whilst trying to stop it destroying a Palestinian home? And then,
making a nice little triangle of stalls with these, Church of England (continuing) who were informing people that attendance numbers are
declining in the C of E because they allow women to be priests. What
a toxic beating heart to an event that should/could have been full of
Spirit.
Oh, and then there was the man who used
to own the exhibition telling us his anecdotes about meeting the
Royal Family in his cut glass accent, reminding me how deeply
Christianity is woven in with the Establishment. I used to like the
Queen until I went to the State Opening of Parliament a few years ago
and saw her in her gold coach happily going to give our land back to
the Tory Government who had already spent four years murdering the
poor and vulnerable. There are some moments that help you see through
things. That was one of mine and yesterday was another.
I did enjoy though telling someone from
the Bible Society that it is a shame that Christianity gets in the
way of people reading the Bible, which I consider to be full of wild
wisdom. And I loved a small venture called 'Take Time', which is
the idea of a lovely Baptist minister who has created some short
recorded guided meditations that take you into Bible stories as
though you were there. He told me that he had the idea first when he
worked as a Prison Chaplain. I have done that work too, and worked in
prisons for many years, and so understand the need to create a space
away from the brutality of that environment. I can only imagine what
a blessing he has been to many in prison. He told me some lovely
stories. Yesterday, right at the end of the exhibition, I came across
him and listened to his recording on the Last Supper. It was so
beautiful. I emerged in tears and asked him, "how did it get
from that to all of this?", looking out at the stalls and the
stuff. I like to think that he understood.
Such a disheartening day but it matters
to see through and beneath. There are so many beautiful people in
Christianity, just as in all religions, so many activists working for
change; to stop the war, to speak out for the fallen through (and
without ramming religion down their necks at the same time), to
provide belonging and comfort in, what for many is, a cold world. It
is after all a radical, revolutionary spirituality from its very
beginnings. It deserves so much better than the Christian Resources
Exhibition.
Christ have mercy indeed.
Christ have mercy indeed.